I remember starting my first blog more than 4 years ago when I just started university, partly it was jumping on the bandwagon because everybody around me had a blog (and blogging was all the rage back then), but partly because I finally had my own space to write whatever it was that I felt like putting out there into the vast space of the internet.
I’ve since moved all those posts away from this address in a bid to start afresh, but sometimes when I look back at all those posts, I’m glad I blogged during that time because I recorded my life as a university student. God knows how much I miss being a university student and not stuck in the never-ending cycle of routine that I’m in right now.
Keeping up at something consistently has never been one of my strong suits, which explains why my relationship with this blog has been on and off for the last 4 years. But this time round I’ll focus more on making this a photography blog; one that I can sometimes rant to as well. Sometimes I feel that there is so much emotion inside me that maybe I can channel into writing.
Reading a blog post today made me really empathize with the blogger, about how she felt as though all her peers from school were doing so much better in life than she was. Kudos to her, I think she’s really brave for talking about it on such a public domain.
Ever since I started working more than a year ago, I felt the same way about my own life. All my friends seemed to be doing better in life than me, working in higher paid jobs or jobs with better prospects, and I’ve never felt totally comfortable with telling people what I do, or how much I earn.
At the end of the day, I guess I just have to learn how to embrace my choices in life and not feel too insecure about things; and stop comparing myself to everyone else I know. I am seriously looking forward to the day when I can put all this behind me and really do something that I feel passionate about, something that makes me WANT to wake up everyday to do. Something that I never get tired of.